im not okay too!
wtf D:
why am i suffering all this all by myself?
whathefuck!
i owe you a living, isnt?
so what if '' love couldnt be forced'' ?!
hais.
i have been thinking all this stupid, foolish, childish things.
all this has made me dint sleep for 8hours.
I slept 4-5hours every night,
5days more to 1month, big deal?
i dont want to suffer all this anymore!
who the hell is good enough, to appear infront of me,
& saying that you love me.
So you could replace HIM in my heart!
i dont want to be like this everyday.
Why i always buy fake smiles to put it on my face, everyday..
you forced me to smile, laugh, or even act like i care ?
fake smiles & laughs is so difficult to express..
sometimes even if im really laughing, how i wish i wouldnt have to stop it .
everything i do, you doesnt even give a damn.
even if i swam the deepest sea, even if i drown into the sea,
you wouldnt care at all ;D
my biggest regret, my biggest biggest mistake & my big biggest bigger miracle..
you ruined it, idiot.
i'll hide at a corner to support you,
i'll give your every year bday present,
all this will be my promises!
and my love will not extinct.
i dont know all this worthwhile?
but the process matter.