i tried to hide, so nobody knows.
but i realised, you found out th truth.
and you dont bother.
tmr 14aug07.
its 10th months from 14oct07.
th day i told you, i got something to tell you.
after weeks, i ask you, do you still rmb .
after that, i told you i like you.
after months, things happened.
and you start ignoring me.
rejecting me. avoid me. act lk you dont care.
I didnt ask for much, but just stay beside me.
I didnt ask for your love for me.
I thot, a smile is enough.
I didnt know becos of me,
things start happening.
And i dont know how much do i stand inside your heart.
if i got hurt, i thot you would be thr.
but you dont know. and you didnt wish to know.
You always think of your own,
what about me?
you need me, you find me. and talk all your sorrows to me.
You always gave me false hope.
and i always thot, i'm th one who understands you th most.
But i'm not. its just all my wishful part of thinking.
people told me, i'm blind. i'm stupid.
and i just dont care. cause i just love you, one only.
But i start realising,
i've been just a fool .
Loving you blindly, and didnt let you realised,
my love starts to get deeper and deeper.
How i wish, i'm strong and brave.
How i wish, i could just end my life.
How i wish, you didnt appear .
after all this days,
i thot i could forget abt th love, and you.
but i couldn't, i didnt make it .
you really meant alot to me,
i dont know why .
i fake a smile, so you can't see.
im afraid i would just miss th chance.
im just lk this onion,
im part of th side dish only.
and i wont be th main meals.
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