I'm trying hard not to have any mixed feelings, but it's just so difficult to do it.
Last time "you" used to tell me that you feel nothing for me. But your action seemed something to me.
N so, I let my feelings fade away. N after since until now, I treat every guys like "brother".
Now again, I met this fellow, doing all that little actions, n is he gonna tell me it means nothing too?
Why is that so hard to understand guys? I feel annoyed. Why can't you guys just say whatever you feel?
I feel like I'm embarrassing myself. I don't want one-sided love again. I know that pain. That certain kind of sadness.
Feels so bad right now. If only I can leave it aside.
So numb. So contradicting. So... whatever. It doesn't even matter to guys like you.