Here I am, back again, to this abandoned blog. But I always come back to read my old post. I always ask myself some questions after reading it. I thot I could apply it on the situation I'm having right now, but no, still feeling the same. It doesn't feels good at all. Just consoling myself. I don't understand why the same damn things happening all over again.
This time it has gone beyond my control. Maybe this time you should tell me what to do. You should lead this path. Tell me. I've alr make my effort to keep it up. What about you? You shall make it happen then. I cared too much. I'm too clingy. I'm over.
Now, go ahead n do whatever you want. If you choose to keep quiet again, then okay, I won't start the convo anymore. Becuz you just make me doubt myself. You make me feels like I'm the only one caring about this friendship. You make me feels like an idiot. Really. A fool. A pathetic fuck girl. A girl who goes around saying, forever alone. A girl who pretend she's happy, n stay fucking positive, just for someone. But sincerely, I'm just a depressed girl.
:)