Double ouch when you said that she played an important role in your life.
You can lose anything but not her.
Oh well, even if it hurts, what can I do?
Every time you do something, even if you don't meant to hurt me, I never fail to question myself.
She played an important role? Seriously?
Somebody who bullied you n your sister. Somebody who controlled each n every actions of yours.
Somebody who cared herself more than you. Somebody who made use of you.
So all along, I was just being one sided, being over-willingly to be a hero, to rescue you from her. (?)
Basically, I'm just a smart aleck, huh?
When you need help in studies, I revised w you.
When you're in pain, I was there, letting you to grab my hand.
When you need somebody to ball w, I was there.
When you've family problems, I stood by you, I was the first one that you informed.
Can I be thick skinned for once? I spent most of my secondary life w you.
I'm sad, cuz I no longer know this person.
Somebody that used to be so dearest to me, that I could, maybe, even die for. I'm not kidding.
I hate changing people around me. I love to spend my whole life w the same person.
I'm fine. I don't mind give and take. Moreover, I always give in.
I feel like I'm always in between the lines.
I wonder if I'm fitting in to maintain the relationship, or fit in and break each other apart.
Am I doing the wrong thing? Why do I always get all these shits? Is it really... me?
Did I got the wrong signals? For all the years I'm w you.
Really upset. It's like I was told that a toy bear doesn't have feelings, but one day, it has feelings. it can talk.