做人很难，难做人。
当我表达我的意见，表达我的心情，没有人懂。觉得我在放狗屁吧？
当我面无表情，不在乎，觉得我无情？觉得我根本都不在意？
当我真情流露，泪都没了，觉得我怎么可能会？
I seriously don't get it. I tried all my best to protect my love.
Can somebody tell me what I did to let everyone leave?
I try, I keep trying. For every one of them. But none of them stayed.
When they've problems, I tried to give them my listening ears.
I stayed up for them, open my ears, gave my advice, my opinion.
When they've nobody, I went out w them. I gave them my time.
Watch movie. Go shopping. Eat good food.
Honestly, I did whatever I can. Probably there's more I can do, but I really don't know what it is.
Why can't people appreciate one? Why can't people put themselves in my shoe?
Not everybody would do this. Why can't they just... being real, for once?
Now, they've their own life. They've their friends. They've no time for me.
I am just a nuisance to them. I am just an extra. A nobody.
I felt so helpless. I spent most of my nights thinking of them.
I felt asleep w tears most of my nights. I listened to music just to numb myself.
They probably don't even think of me.
I once think that I'm asking too much, so I eventually stop hoping.
But well, things still doesn't go well.
They kept all the shits from me. They enjoyed all the good things w others.
n when shit happens, they threw shit at me. they expect me to give them what I've stopped doing.
I actually did not stop. I just force myself not to be so dumb anymore.
Every time they came to me, it's kind of contradicting.
I thought they hate all the things I did for them, yet they keep coming back for it.
Are they lacking of love, or I am?
I really hate myself for loving them so much.
I've been chasing after everyone. Why is it that way? Why is it me?
Depressed.
“一追再追，只想追趕生命裡一分一秒，原來多麼可笑。”－［张国荣－追］